Showing posts with label doubt. Show all posts
Showing posts with label doubt. Show all posts

Monday, October 27, 2014

Worlds of Faith

A Review/Reflection of A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith

Devotees of Science Fiction and Fantasy writing understand the importance of world building. With literature of that genre there is an implicate agreement between the reader and the author that the context of the book is not one in which the reader lives in. Gravity will be different, dogs rule the world, all horses speak out of their… ears, the sky is green and the grass is blue, and on and on. The world is going to be different that the ordinary, everyday world that we muggles slough through on a daily basis. Thus there is a degree of world building with these stories. The author has to build the world, and then figure out how to share the rules, the physics, the creatures, and all other aspects that might be different from what the reader normally expects. Whether it be the giant turtle of DiscWorld, or the geography of the Fire and Ice saga, or the difference between Dwarves and Elves of Middle Earth (from Lord of the Rings for the 1% of the country that has never encountered that masterpiece… shame on you), or the role of magic in the realm of Xanth, the reader needs to learn how the world works, what it means to live in that world, and the ways in which the story needs to fit in and will be guided by that world.


            While it is a far cry from Science Fiction or Fantasy writing, I would argue that Betty Smith’s book, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn brilliantly does a similar thing – it creates a world. Yet in this case the world in question is Brooklyn in the early 1900s. It would have been interesting and slightly humorous if the book was actually about Gary, Indiana with the title, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, but alas, Smith does not carry such humorous sensibilities with her work. Perhaps in person she was a real card and cut-up, but not in writing. Regardless, it is great work speaking to the experience of life in Brooklyn in the first two decades of the 20th century. Or better said, it is a world that is carefully, and painstakingly built for the reader Brooklyn in the early 1900s. We do not get the historical or geographical context in broad strokes, but instead in depth and brilliance of color. World events like World War I or the influenza of 1918 are mentioned in the work, but they are ancillary, secondary to the experience of Brooklyn. We get a dot, a point in the picture, but that point is described with such detail and care that the reader can from there place the life and experience of living in Brooklyn in the larger context of the American experience. It is a thick description (to borrow the term from the late ethnographer and anthropologist Clifford Geertz) of a place and a time that is told with such care and delicacy that it feels like unwrapping a gift one fold of wrapping paper at a time. It is not a plot-driven work, but instead one that is centered on the experience of living and being in a certain point and time. It is over 400 pages of world building and it is beautifully and masterfully done.

Because the work is focused with such detail on the experiences of the main character Francie Nolan and her family, there are many moments that one can call on for comment. For this post I would like to lift up one particular event; when Francie and her family is at a Catholic Mass to remember her recently deceased father. While watching and listening to the singing and the speaking of the Latin Mass, Francie has a revelation:

“Francie believed with all her heart that the altar was Calvary and that again Jesus was offered up as a sacrifice. As she listened to the consecrations, one for His Body and one for His Blood, she believed that the words of the priest were a sword which mystically separated the Blood from the Body. And she knew, without knowing how to explain why, that Jesus was entirely present, Body, Blood, Soul, and Divinity in the wine in the golden chalice and in the bread on the golden plate.”

            Before I go any further I should speak to the deep sense of sacramentality that is being described here. My Catholic readers (do I have any Catholic readers?) will pick up on this right away perhaps without even realizing it. Those born before Vatican II, who were raised reading and learning the Baltimore Catechism will likely be able to connect with this experience more than those born after 1962. To my Protestant readers who do not have a heightened sensitivity for a sense of mystery in worship (i.e. sacramentiality), try for a moment to suspend all the skepticism and doubt and uncertainty that comes out of your reactionary response to Medieval Catholicism and imagine what it might be like for a 14 year old girl to experience a Latin Mass. It is mysterious. Note what Francie thinks next:

            “‘It’s a beautiful religion,” she mused, “and I wish I understood it more. No. I don’t want to understand it all. It’s beautiful because it’s always a mystery, like God Himself is a mystery. Sometimes I say I don’t believe in God. But I only say that when I’m mad at Him… Because I do! I do! I believe in God and Jesus and Mary.’”

As a life-long Protestant (and a Baptist at that), I would leave out the “Mary” part, but that is not the point. Francie feels the pull between the desire to know and the realization that not knowing deepens the beauty of the moment. “It’s beautiful because it’s always a mystery…” To understand everything is to lose something, but to hold to that place of unknowing is to have a place where the beautiful can enter in. This is a sensibility that Smith brings to the entire work. She offers great detail, great depth, but stops at the moment when the mystery needs to remain and does not explain everything away. For example, Francie loves hearing her father sing as he comes home late at night. We don’t need to know why, just that it is profound and powerful. The reader is called to rest in the mystery and in that find the beauty. The book is replete with moments of beauty and mystery; moments profound and simple.

In many ways faith is about world-building. We are not creating the world we live in, but offering explanations and descriptions for why the world is as it is. We start with certain assumptions and shared beliefs like the belief in the existence of God and that this God is love. Such a assumption shapes our view and experience of the world. From there we try to make sense of our experiences, we try to explain the dissonances, and we try to understand the world in which we dwell based on those assumptions. Augustine almost has a nervous breakdown trying to understand how there can be evil in the world when all is created by God and when God is believed to be good. As a theologian and as a pastor I try to offer an understanding of evil that fits within the world of faith that we have embraced. I try to suggest ways to read scripture that make sense with the particular individual. Churches try to offer ways of seeing and living in the world that conform with a certain understanding of faith. This is world building, but can be taken too far. We all run the risk of explaining too much, of trying to make too much sense in the world, and losing the beauty and the mystery. “It’s beautiful because it’s always a mystery.” One of the lessons that I have pulled from this work is that there is a point when you need to stay in the mystery. We want to have rational and explanation, but only to a point. There comes a point when we need to fall into the mystery of creation, of faith, of hope, and of love. There is a beauty to the mystery in our rituals (like why the sermon takes so stickin’ long), our prayers, our scripture, and our lives. Explaining away the mystery leads to a militant, dogmatic faith that demands that one fully believes every little thing that is said and explained. This is a kind of religion that usually harms people, that fears questions and curiosity, and that has no sense of play in the world. There is no mystery in this kind of faith. A faith that holds the beauty of the mystery is a faith that falls into the space where reason and mystery meet.

One of the great things about A Tree Grows in Brooklyn is that the mystery is shown to be in the mundane. The act of making a tin can bank, the purchasing of meat, listening to parents talk late into the night, and many other examples in the book can be seen as small, simple, and ordinary. Yet the way Betty Smith describes them, the world she creates around them, draws the reader into the mystery and the beauty of each moment.


Those moments of mystical beauty in the arena of faith will most likely be ordinary, simple, and mundane. Yet we are again and again called to notice the beauty in those moments and recognize the presence of the divine in the unexplained mystery.

Monday, January 13, 2014

Good Doubt

Doubt is a very real part of life. We doubt truth statements on a daily basis from those made by weather forecasts to those made by politicians and everything in-between. Your doubt may reach to levels of existence and metaphysics questioning even the presence of the words of this blog as you read them (they don’t exist, you are only seeing a conglomeration of ones and zeros). Doubt is normal and human.

Yet we seem to get excited when doubt occurs in the religious arena. When talking about faith and God and one’s doubt becomes, for many, a taboo, a problem that needs to be overcome. For doubt to exist in areas of one’s faith is portrayed as problematic.



I have now watched my second Ingmar Bergman movie, Winter Light and am getting snobbier and snobbier by the minute. It was only the binge viewing of the Rambo movies that kept me from completely removing myself from the hoi polloi, the common folk and to start living for the sake of the aesthetic beauty of obscure art. Thanks Rambo, you have saved me again.

Winter Light wrestles with doubt in the religious context. Tomas, the main character, is a priest who is wrestling with a profound doubt because of his particular faith in God. His role as a priest is cobbled by “God’s silence.” The God that Tomas believes in has been silent and absent. When a married couple looks to Tomas for help Tomas can only offer dribble. The husband is in despair, he wants to take his own life and Tomas cannot reach him. He cannot offer any depth, any direction, or any real help to a man who only sees despair and hopelessness and hatred in the world. For Tomas, doubt is debilitating.

This is a common approach to doubt in the religious arena. It comes out of the notion that you must have a strong, robust faith that cannot be shaken, challenged, or harmed if you are to be a leader. Yet in Tomas’ case (and for many others) his doubt is necessary for his faith is immature, adolescent and shallow. Tomas believes in an “echo God” – a god who is a reflection of himself. Think of Feuerbach’s projection idea of God (that God is the needs and desires that we project), add a dash of narcissism and you get this hallow God that Tomas has held to throughout his vocation. Now, years after his wife’s death, Tomas is hearing only God’s silence because his conception of the divine and his faith cannot be sustained when faced with the reality of life. Tomas is at a point where he is forced with a choice: wrestle with his faith, deepen his convictions and his relationship with God or leave the priesthood, the church, and embrace disbelief. It is doubt that brings him to this place.

This is a good thing for Tomas. It is not a fun or easy thing, but it is good and demonstrates the value that doubt can have with one’s faith. When faced with the harsh realities of the world a shallow, mean, empty, immature God will not stand. One’s faith will justifiably be threatened and doubt will emerge. If one’s faith is shallow then this doubt can become a corrective, a purge of the weakness. Doubt can be a saving grace depending on where it may lead.

What you do with your doubt is the important unknown that makes doubt potentially dangerous.

When doubt forces you to face the frailty and faults of your faith and when doubt challenges your hopes you can crumble, wither, and walk away from all things spiritual and religious, or you can face your doubt, take it seriously and wrestle. You can wrestle with whatever those core tenants of your faith may be. You can claim a deeper, stronger, healthier faith.

Bergman’s movie ends with Tomas standing before an empty sanctuary (aside from his mistress and a crippled sexton) and Tomas starting the service. Tomas starts by saying, “Holy, holy, holy; All the Earth is filled with your glory.”

There are a number of ways that this ending can be understood and I am not going to list them. Watch the movie, make your own decision about this ending. What I see is hope. I see Tomas crying and clinging to one of those basic tenants of his faith and demanding that it be seen through. Tomas wants to hear God. Tomas wants to find a God that is not just an empty echo of himself and so he falls into the performative act that goes deep into his tradition and allows the power of that act to help him in his doubt.

Returning to or continuing those actions, the ritual, the prayer that connects with a tradition, that goes beyond your individual, personal faith is one way to wrestle with a good doubt and may bring you closer to God. Instead of going deeper into yourself, lean on the writings of the ancients, the prayers that have been passed on for centuries, and the scriptures that have been informing and guiding people in their faith for generations. Lean on those resources, say the words, ingest the wisdom, and listen for God. Let your doubt purge the weakness of your faith and let the actions guide your belief.  

Here is the quick summary of what I am trying to say:

Doubt = good (sorta)
Worship = good (kinda)
Bergman’s Winter Light = good


Watch the movie, doubt your faith, worship with the multitudes that have gone before us, mix, stir, and ingest.